Fixed At Zero

Things are going alright - I've lost two pounds since my last post.

Not a lot, but it's definitely a start.

I feel very in control and disciplined right now, and I hope I'll be able to keep this mindset...

Fasting at school is very hard for me because my roommate acts like a second mom,

but I'm planning on just telling her how I ate while she was in class,

even though I won't. 

Also, I won't have a scale at school which is making me very anxious.

My friend has a very cheap scale that is mostly inaccurate, and hard to read because it's not digital,

but I might have to start using it for reference points.

On another note, my best friend from home is rapidly losing weight,

and didn't eat any time I saw her over break?

She's never acted like this before, and as awful as it is, my first reaction is jealousy.

She's always been bigger than me, and now I can't help but feel like she's competing with me.

I've always been a competitive person, and this is just adding fuel to my fire.

The next time she sees me, I will have lost a substantial amount of weight too,

I can promise that.

Anyways, I don't really have much to report other than that.

I want to lose another five pounds before I post again,

and hopefully that will be before next Friday.

xxxx